Agony

The pain this disease has caused me and the isolation it pushes me into inspired this drawing. I have learned that I need to use every minute I am feeling okay to work at making a difference or to do something for someone else in need. The problem is that those times are rather sparse on my road to remission. To start this piece, I first applied my makeup as if I were going out. Then I stepped into the shower and photographed my face while in the process of removing my makeup. I wanted it to appear as though I was crying and in agony because of how hopeless I feel some times. I know I am extremely lucky and privileged, but I also know how easy that awareness is to forget. My mind is constantly fighting itself, wondering if I am doing the most I can do and trying to decide when I've done enough.